Frustrations Soaring!

I am so frustrated. I feel like I have been sitting here for hours trying to write a paper for class that was due this morning. Everything I write sounds so cliche'. I cannot manage to write an intellectual sentence about anything. My words are boring and what I have to say is completely uninteresting. Much like this blog entry. I guess I just thought if I vented out my frustrations it would help me get to what I need to say. I hate this about myself, my inability to focus. I feel like a complete idiot. I know that I'm intelligent, I know that I have interesting and witty things to say, but they seem trapped in the back of my mind and it is driving me crazy!

George Rule

This movie was not as horrible as everyone made it out to be. It was not the best movie I have ever seen. But I thought it was an interesting story. The acting could have been a bit better. But all in all it was definitely a way to kill two hrs on a quiet night.

Washing it all away.

Tomorrow I am going home for the first time in four years, and to say the least my anxiety level is nearing freak out. I know that this disorder is completely mind over matter. But it always amazes me the amount of strength it takes to over come these episodes. I am so excited about seeing my brother and sister in law and all of my friends, and I refuse to let this disorder debilitate me. I have come so far in the last three years and I know that I am strong enough to over come anything that I face. I guess I write this as more of a reassurance to myself. To allow myself to get out all of these worries and fears. To know that I will be gone for a short period of time, and I'll be safe and this weekend is going to be so super exciting. I've already packed my suitcase and I am ready to go. And on Friday when it's 570 outside. I will be nice and warm.

I suppose life has just been a bit stressful lately. Moving, school starting, work, going to this reunion, so on and so forth. I am excited that it will soon be October my most favorite holiday of the entire year, and today I bought new shampoo that smells like spiced Pumpkin. I could eat the entire bottle!